Big ({¡}) Energy
I cannot believe a year ago we were heading out to Utica, NY to meet Howie from Just Neon Sign Co. to talk about the construction of the first neon vulva! I know it's the end of January and I should be focusing on what's next, but I can't help but feel like we truly made a lot happen in 2021.
Now at the end of the first month of 2022, it's more about refining the process, letting go of things that aren't working and shifting focus to slow down and get deeper into the process. This project shifts and changes, as I grow and learn more about myself, my emotions, my desires, and I can really feel such a difference in myself and how I view myself from 2 years ago when I started this journey. I was nervous about what I might find within myself, but I was ready to start digging.
Canvases are being phased out (except a select few designs)
When I started creating neon vulva portraits, I did so digitally. I never really imagined that I'd have a website, or a mission, it just grew organically at first, one pussy at a time. When I had about 6 of them, completed, from friends just asking if could create one for them, (I started doing them for $25 each after that). It wasn't until one friend asked about having one printed that it even occurred to me to make these into prints. I started working on building a site with canvas prints for each model to be able to buy their own custom print. Someone even bought three of them. (thank you for that!)
Once I saw the neon in real life though, I felt the canvas wasn't having the same effect, it lacked that glow. I found a screen printer at the end of 2021 and I'm now in the process of working with Quinn from Hamster Labs in Pheonix, AZ to create prints that glow, using neon and ultraviolet inks which makes them glow under a black light! The glow is such an important part of the portraits, it signifies that feeling of being turned on. The buzzing feeling we get from pleasure when our vulvas are "all lit up"!
I've been struggling to nail down what I really feel without feeling so boxed into anything... society always wants everything broken down into little boxes, easier to manage, understand and sort, and divide. Well here's the thing...sexuality doesn't fit into a box it's all about connecting with yourself and connecting with other humans, it brings us back to being human. Each person has their own understanding, feelings, and desires. When I started this... it was to understand my own self, what my pussy looks like, how it feels, what it wants, how it makes me feel about myself...but I’ve learned so much more than that. I’ve learned so much more about human beings.
I’ve become a lot kinder to myself, and compassionate towards others. I find kinks so intriguing and love talking to people about them. I’m still figuring out mine, and it helps to talk with other people about their experiences. I’m finding a way to write about my sexual experiences… so stay tuned for that too. It’s been a deep sometimes dark road through these murky feelings and working through some of the shame and programming, but I am so grateful to feel like a little more of a whole person to not be neglecting the sexual side of my being.
Pleasure is Power
From the beginning, pleasure has been a huge driving force behind this project. As much as my parents, and any tech embellishments would love to wash away the sexual side of this project and have me focus on the clean lines, and designs of vulvas to show how different they are... you can't just douche away the sexual stimuli of genitalia. Pleasure is power! Feeling good about myself, includes my body, my emotions, and my mind. And giving myself pleasure is a huge part of that. We all give ourselves pleasure, just in different ways. While in the past I might have enjoyed a bit of retail therapy, bought myself some new shoes, (I'm more of a minimalist now) I have formed a new practice of masturbation to give myself those good vibes. Some people treat themselves with donuts or they stop on their way home for their favorite Starbucks treat. So what's the difference between jerking off and buying yourself a venti caramel macchiato? Well besides the $$, the sugar.... giving yourself pleasure with masturbation, is the most natural, and safe way for your to feel pleasure, and instead of a crash afterward, it’s more of a glowing feeling.
Big Pussy Energy
Since the first time my instagram account was deleted, I knew censorship would be an issue. The insta-gods just aren't into the word pussy so I've been choosing my battles wisely with them. I removed the word "({¡})" from major parts of my website, and my posts and replaced it with a symbol. It isn't just a word, it has so much more feeling.
I'm moving into 2022 with a new feeling, here at Genital Electric we are celebrating ({¡}) as a symbol, an icon. As I've grown over the last year, I can feel this shift in my mindset, and my desires and things are clicking. Big ({¡}) Energy is the energy I want to bring to the table in 2022, with fearless confidence, and trust in myself to speak my desires, set my boundaries, and flow with the energy of the universe. It's about to be the year of the tiger, and I'm breathing deeply into my tiger energy for this Lunar New Year.🐅
