NkD Blog No. 7 naked on the internet
2 years ago, before I started this project, you would have never been able to find a nude photo of me online. I never even considered it. I was always the one behind the camera, the photographer. It’s what I went to school for and fell in love with as an artform. But I had very little experience being in front of it, the main focus. Even when taking photos for my travel blog over years, I was always faceless, turned away, with focus on the destination and not so much myself. I wasn’t very confident in myself.
“Since most of us struggle with periods of self-hatred, bad body images, shame and confusion over sex and pleasure, I recommend having a hot love affair with yourself. Sexual healing begins by learning how to turn yourself on, discovering your sexual fantasies, and giving yourself an abundance of selflove and orgasms.””
For years I was behind the scenes, but this project, and my journey to discover myself on a much deeper level, led me to experience the other side of the lens. I started taking pictures of myself, in various forms of undress, in the nude, and had my partner Forest photograph me as well. With him I felt comfortable enough to let myself be and feel sensual and sexual on camera.
I had never seen myself in in this light before, and it gave me a chance to look at myself in a similar way that he looks at me. With desire and admiration. It took time for me to let go of the little things I hated in an image, and accept myself for who I am.
I started to use this practice of taking erotic photos of myself as a way to appreciate myself more, all sides, including my sexuality. Boudoir photography has always been something I’ve admired. It’s important for us a women, as humans, to be able to express our sexuality and feel good about seeing ourselves as sexual beings. Not just as a mother, or daughter, or whatever our career title is. Let us see ourselves, as the wild, sexy creatures that we embody. Our sexuality is beautiful.
Challenge: Take a picture of yourself naked, raw, sexy, and let me know how it feels.
